Last night, I glimpsed something so Holy, so beautiful, it
hurt. It haunted my subconscious so that
I couldn't sleep but for a few hours before waking again, and it has continued to
haunt my consciousness today…
It feels almost too Holy to share because it risks being
tossed aside and trampled instead of being acknowledged as the precious,
priceless—yes priceless, pearl it is.
Not that I believe one would cast such Holiness aside on purpose, or on
a level meant to treat it as something that doesn't have worth; but one might cast
it aside because it was too Holy to view—to really view. Because when
you see something so Holy and so Beautiful as this, and you really
allow yourself to view it… to gaze at it… to absorb it… you are cut to the core
with a pain that says, “Let the whole world be silent” –a Holy pain… and you
know it will never leave you the same…
No, you can’t ever be the same…
Why?
Because you’ve seen the face of God.
“Behold, He standeth
behind our wall, He looketh forth at the windows,
shewing Himself
through the lattice.”
Song of Solomon 2:9
Sometimes, God peaks through, if
we let Him. If we let the wall down that
protects our hearts and minds from His Holiness—a Holiness so beyond what we
can imagine that it not only hurts, but as God told Moses in Exodus 33:20,
"You cannot see my face, for no one may see me and live."
And so it is, and so it was with
the glimpse I caught last night… a glimpse of God’s own face… a glimpse of
His Glorious Face…
His Glorious Face…
His Most Holy Face…
His Most Beautiful Face…
And now I am cut to the quick
with this Holy pain—this Holy Shard—and if I let it work its way into my heart, as God has said, a
part of me must die...
Jamie Lash writes in her book, A Kiss A Day, “We get glimpses of God’s
glory. But mostly we see through a glass dimly.
One day we will see Him face to face.
We know in part, but then we shall know, just as we are known. (1
Corinthians 13:12)”
I think this too is what happened
to me last night. By seeing that glimpse
of His face, I saw what He sees—what He sees every day. By seeing that glimpse of His face, I knew
what He knows—what He knows every day. And
seeing and knowing, I then felt what He feels—just a glimmer of what He feels,
everyday… And to try to put that in human terms in no way will ever do it
justice…
It was Holy… painfully Holy.
It was Beautiful… painfully
Beautiful.
It was Glorious… painfully
Glorious.
It was Love.
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